All Sufficient Grace

SUMMERTIME!!!

2011-06-21T19:23:00.003-05:00

The living is easy this summer. I have a few workshops I am going to. I am tutoring and have even managed to cook a few times. Yes, Summertime is here and the living is sure easy at the Sanders' Casa.

My Lord and My God

2011-04-28T18:08:00.003-05:00

I am just finally calming down from of an amazing Easter Weekend. It began on Good Friday sitting under the teaching of David Platt. I was part of a simulcast called The Secret Church. It challenged me in ways that rendered me speechless most times and took me several days to process what he taught. He is a brilliant man of God and I did realize I am reading the wrong books. Visit secretchurch.org to see what I am talking about.

Then Sunday at church we had a great service based on our members "Cardboard Testimonies." On one side people wrote about their lives before Christ or perhaps something they struggled with then on the other side they wrote what God did in their lives. I was singing or attempting to sing in the choir so I didn't show one on the stage but mine would have said Side A: Devastated by death and divorce Side B: Jesus Restored my Joy and Life. This was an amazing way to celebrate Easter with my church family.
The title of today's blog are the words of Thomas the disciple after he saw the hands and feet of Jesus. I cannot begin to comprehend what Jesus did for me on the cross but those are the words I do understand. My Lord and My God.

There has been more devastating weather in our world this time it is here in the states and I pray that God gets our attention and we listen to what He has to say. There is a lot of devastation I am praying for those involved and I also pray that we, as Americans, pay attention to His call.

Spring Break

2011-03-14T10:53:00.000-05:00

So Valentine's day has now been over for exactly one month. I don't have any feeling one way or another, however the V Day party on Monday made for the longest week since creation. I had one suitor and he made me a cake and brought over a card. The problem is I do not have an emotional connection with him. Now there is another friend in Dallas that I may or may not have spoken about before, He is a sweet guy but not ready for a "relationship." He is so stinking cute but again not anything to write about. {Edit: there may be something soon but for now...} We had something before in a past life but now we are good friends. A friend of mine said "you don't need another buddy" last week but she is wrong. You can never have too many friends. That's how we increase the kingdom for God by iron sharpening iron. As I sit here in my friends house in Dallas, I got 3 phone calls from friends from home while I was here, I love those friends and had I not let them in my life as "buddies" they wouldn't have been there to encourage me I needed it. I mean, seriously, my dog died this week. They all knew how much I loved her.
Anyway, this is the 3rd time I've attempted to finish this post, and now it it is almost spring break. Praise God for Spring Break. I am so ready.

NEW YEAR!!!!

2011-01-09T14:03:00.005-06:00

...I also want to get married. I want kids and I want a Chocolate Lab or Doberman.

I also am restless again. I have no idea what is in store. I have been restless for a year or so and have no idea what or why I am. But my theme so far this year is Be Still! Yep that is the cry. Be Still.

As a teacher I have the luxury of having 2 “new years “ One in January and one in August. That means that I also have 2 end of the years. So right now I want to be still at least until the end of the year May and then recalculate and see what happens next.

Today I have been challenged more by the question: What is my Motivation? Is it by the Joy of God or the joy of man?
Listen to John Piper's message from Passion Atlanta. HERE

Creative Expression

2010-10-23T19:30:00.004-05:00

Last week my friend and music pastor challenged us to express how we feel about the Lord. I do not write songs or paint or anything really but I do have a story to tell about the One who saved me and redeemed me. I have been through some challenging times within the last five years and God has shown me that He is all I need. Thus the reason for the title of this blog. I have recently been studying the names of God and I have seen how he has made Himself known to me in so many ways. He has been my provider; Jehovah Jireh, He has been my healer; Jehovah Rapha, he has seen my problems as El Roi; he has been my sufficiency; my El Shaddai. One of the names of God that has stuck out the most to me is the Lord my Shepherd; Jehovah-Raah. As one of His sheep I must be totally dependent on Him. He gives me peace, rest, protection and love. And I love the fact that He is all of that to me and more. Thanks for asking us to reflect on Who God is to us. There is so much more to tell and I can't wait to share.

Update:

2010-09-26T18:27:00.002-05:00

First update is about my Uncle Keith and Brad. The "wedding" was moved up several months to this month so my dilemma of not going to his wedding wasn't even an issue. I get to watch his doggy Ruby for the 2 weeks they are gone and will probably see pictures when they get back. Glad that I am not even going to have to make the decision about attending or lying about the reason I'm not going. He seemed happy so I just made sure I told them I loved them. Please pray for opportunities for me to show him the love of Jesus and how He is the only one that can satisfy us.
2nd update: I have been asked to help lead kids worship at church for about a month. I have been on praise teams before and I love serving in that area but now, because of different circumstances going on, I have been asked to help in that area as well. So, today was my 1st day and I had so much fun. I am still a bit nervous about singing in front of kids and adults but it is all for the Lord. I spent a lot of time preparing, praying and practicing but now that I know what it really involves I have to do so much more. God is so good and now He has shown me yet again how I need to depend on Him.
Update #3 I have been sick since July and after 2 months I finally feel so much better. I have had stomach issues and I firmly believe that God is my healer. I am so thankful for His healing touch. He is my Jehovah Rapha.

So, I guess this post is about How Great my God is. I love how the more I know about Him the more he shows me of himself. HOW GREAT IS MY GOD!!!!

Closed Doors and Open Windows

2010-09-12T13:14:00.005-05:00

I am a bit hard headed and God usually has to take drastic measures to get things through my head. Some doors have been closed today but some windows have opened. I had been praying for clarity and now I have it. Again! I love how God does things. I am blessed and I know it. God is amazing and what I am doing now is waiting for him to show me even more. I am an open book and God is writing my story. It feels good to let go of some things that I thought, I thought was what I wanted but God knows what I need and how dare I not take that. Anyway, another lesson learned and this time no money was spent. ;-) Thanks God.

I Love OBU!

2010-09-06T10:30:00.005-05:00

First of all God is so good to have allowed me to go to such an amazing university. I graduated from OBU in 1994 and because of my time there and the friends I made while there, I have been changed. I am not who I was because of OBU. It was because of people there that I am the teacher, leader, Christian and friend that I am today. High school was very hard for me because I was an introvert. I loved to talk but only when I was comfortable with the people once I got to know them. Then, I went to OBU. I was one of 200 freshmen, not one of 1000. I felt like I had a voice and I wasn't just a number.

You know, people say that the college years are the best years of your life. I agree and I am so glad that my experience was at OBU. As a freshman in Perrin West, not knowing anyone, I quickly made friends with Buffy Meador, April Works, Kaye Boone and Kristi Jackson. Life as I knew it would never be the same. We laughed, we cried, we watched Designing Women, and ate enough pizza to kill us. I remember running down the hall in Frances Crawford West 2 saying "is that my phone?" as we set our land lines outside our door because we had a super long cord. I had my 1st real boyfriend, and my first real heart break there. Then came my time as a Tri Chi. (I still use my XXX key-chain that I got while pledging as my mail key key-chain.) Such great memories. I love my university and I love the people that I met there. It is funny that we are not the Auburn, A&M, UT or even Razorbacks but because of OBU we have something in common. As a member of XXX (Tri-Chi) I learned what it meant to have a family away from my family. I met Angie Dodd, Nicol Bodenstein, Sara Fish, Michele Woodall, Sarah Smith, Lori Abbot, Chrissy Holmes, Amy Ables, Leigh Anne McKinney, Chariny Herring, and at least 30 other women each year. I was blessed but little did I know that these friendships that I made there at OBU would be the ones that would get me through some of my darkest days after life at OBU. Yes, God is good. I loved OBU and wouldn't change my experience for the world. I pray for OBU and the members of the Faculty, Staff and Student Body especially XXX! (Tri-Chi). I will always have a special place in my heart for the people of OBU in ARKADELPHIA, ARKANSAS!!

God is not mysterious!

2010-09-05T16:47:00.003-05:00

He has made know to us the mystery of His will. He said that if we follow Him, He will guide our paths. He is not a mystery. He is found if we seek Him. If we delight in Him, He will give us the desire of our hearts. He also says His ways are our ways. Of course they are not, He is GOD. I have been able to enjoy a lot of free time lately because God has allowed it. I am to use it though to spend time with Him. If I allow my time to be idle then the enemy is going to get a hold of my head and my thoughts and destroy me. I do not want that to happen. God's word says to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. I am going to do so. I also wonder if I should take a Facebook break again too. I think there is one in my future. I usually have a ton of stuff going through my head and today I decided to hash some things out on here. So, sorry if this is a weird post. It's my blog I can do what I want. :-) Anyway, I feel a little better now. I am going to read a real book today and then reflect on God's word. What a novel idea. Happy Labor Day, is that appropriate to say? Oh well, enjoy the 3 day weekend.

Keith and Brad

2010-08-29T18:52:00.004-05:00

No, They aren't my boyfriend's names. I am faced with a family dilemma. My uncle is getting married to his boyfriend Brad in IOWA next summer. Today he called to see where I ordered my wedding invites from. WOW!!! What a crazy thing to ask, especially considering the circumstances of said weddings. I love my uncle so much and fortunately I can use distance as an excuse for not attending. However, that isn't the reason. I am opposed to gay marriages and all that they don't represent. Here though is where I am in the dilemma. My family knows that I am a Christian however, they will not understand why I will not go to his wedding. I will take this to the Lord and ask for His help. Very strange to be in this situation.

SITG (Still in the Game) just a different game!!

2010-08-24T21:47:00.002-05:00

Sooo. God has closed some doors and allowed me to have some time to rest. By rest I mean that I am only busy Monday, Tuesday and Wednesdays now. I can take time to exercise and spend time with the Lord. Oh yeah and work on my job. I was hoping to begin grad school online at Liberty this week and thus begin my M.A.R. (Master's of Arts in Religion). However, some doors have closed and I am going another direction. Here's the kicker, I am not sure what I am to do next. I am going to do my job heartily as for the Lord and take care of myself. I am not sure what is on the horizon but, God is.
Pray for me because I get anxious when things change for "no reason." But I also know that "God has not given me the spirit of fear but of power and love and sound judgment." 2 Timothy 1:7
"He is in control and I am not, and if I am in control, He is not." Scott P.

Stay Tuned...

GBITG! (Get back in the game)

2010-08-02T10:20:00.007-05:00

It is August 3rd and this is my last week of blissful rest. As of Monday I will be "getting back in the game." The game is changing this year and I pray I am ready. I have had a lot of change in the past years and this one is no different. I am ready though because I have spent time with the Father. He has shown me that He is Sovereign, He is my sufficiency and He is my Master.
Here is what I learned during the "time out" of summer:
I began this summer teaching summer school and I had to figure out new ways to reach the kids. I had a class of 10 some of which were bilingual, and most of which were Special Ed and then there were the few that were both. I learned to make sure all of them had their individual needs met as well as what to look for in my own children in class this year. They each deserve the same chance and I can be their advocate in anyway I can. I also learned that I am to be there for my co-workers. Many of the teachers that I came into contact with were LOST. They did not desire the Lord nor did they realize their need for Him. One day as clear as a bell I heard The Father say. "You are to be in the classroom until I remove you. Here is mission field." I love it when He speaks to me clearly like that.
I also learned that He is not only the Sovereign God, He is my sufficiency. You would have thought I would have learned that based on the name of my blog but ohh how God uses others things to teach me more about Him. I went to the Canary Islands again and I love that place. It could be because of the kids, or the people I traveled with or the beauty of the island. No matter what God uses that place to speak to me. Hence the reason I know Him as my El Shaddai (my sufficiency). I have come to a place that I know He is enough and His grace is enough. I still desire to be married and have children but only when He chooses that for me.
Before I left for the Canary Islands I got very sick. I wasn't able to keep anything down and actually thought my appendix was rupturing. There was another instance where God made me rely on Him. After visiting the doctor and lots of medicine later. I was cleared to go on the trip and because of that last effort of the enemy to thwart God's plans, I knew I was to listen to what God had for me. All of that to say I am ready to get back in the game!!! I am ready to learn what God has for me and to be a blessing to others because I have been blessed.
I will probably write more because I am again on a journey. This time i desire to be more purposeful and intentional. I am excited to see what God will do.

Countdown to the Canary Islands

2010-07-12T17:06:00.002-05:00

I am leaving for a mission trip Friday and I am so excited. Of course with all of the excitement comes a ton of preparation. Also, not lacking this year...an attack from the enemy. We have 6 people going and we have all had our "things." One huge one is a lady that none of us had met is dealing with The BP oil spill. She is finally headed home tomorrow. We will get to meet her and then head out on Friday a few other things have happened I won't mention but just please if you read this pray for our trip. When Satan tries to attack we know he is worried. GOD is in control and WE have the Victory.

A New Venture

2010-06-26T10:52:00.007-05:00

In the last month 5 men that I have "dated" in the past have resurfaced.
FIVE! 5!
WHAT THE HELL???? sorry ;-( Anyway, I keep wondering if my ex-husband will show up too the way things had been going. Oh wait, he did. He showed up as my friends match on Match.com. She wasn't sure if that was him or not so she sent me his profile... YEP! She opted to not contact him but we did debate all (about 300 of us) going to meet him in a dark alley...but decided he wasn't worth going to jail for. Kidding we were not going to do anything like that. "'Vengeance is MINE' saith the LORD, 'I will repay'"
"Serenity NOW!", I say!

Next, I finally had to tell one ex-boyfriend that there "isn't now, nor will there be anything between us. I am just not that into you."
A New Venture:
Red Flag #1
So, for years I have been against online dating. I thought if you connect or reconnect with someone through Facebook then OK but, online? My reason...that is me seeking a man not him being the initiator. But after speaking to a friend she said that "God can use the internet, he doesn't need people either but chooses to use them too." So, one lonely Friday night I joined an online dating service. I had heard about this site through someone that actually had just celebrated their 3rd wedding anniversary after meeting online so I was hopeful.

Day one: I fill out the questionnaire and post some pictures. I was very detailed in what I am looking for in a mate so I was very pleased in the responses I got within a few hours. Wouldn't you know it, there are some very good looking people out there, who, like me, are alone and are looking. We all have good intentions and well, we just want to find the right person. I get a few "flirts" and a couple of messages. I am excited because finally...God does use the internet. Hallelujah! or (Alleluia!)???

Day 2: I get even more "profile views" and there are even some people that have never been married or people that are widowed. Some with kids, some with out. How cool if I could find someone that has kids and the mom had passed away. I could be that mom that took the kids under my wing, had some of our own and could be the kind of mom I had and step mom I have. Wow. So excited that God is using the internet.

Day 3: Umm, a guy has shown interest a few times (red flag?) and I think he is kinda cute. I read his profile and seems to know the Lord and he actually sends me a message with his email address because he actually doesn't get on the site too much. He even has a picture with his son. What a cutie.

Day 5: Things are going well. He and I email and I am still using my alias and a brand new email address. Specifically for this dating site. I don't want people to know the real address yet. Then I can cancel it anytime and be OK. This guys misses his wife of 10 years and is living with his mom and 2 kids b/c he is a Vet and they aren't old enough to be in school all day. Now, mind you, any man that is 40+ and lives with his mom....RED FLAG!!!!!!!

Day 6: We still email everyday and he just "happens" to be out of the country (England) for his mom's surgery and wants to chat. No Facebook or MySpace page though. Hmmm...and no response to the FB or MS page question ( do you have one?). I don't feel too comfortable but I do give him my number. I think "Well, he may be new to social networking so I'll let it pass." RED FLAG!!!! Last question that was in an email was...So tell me about your friends. NO ANSWER. but I did get a call after midnight last night. Ummm I DO NOT ANSWER THE PHONE AFTER 10:00 PM. much less midnight from an unknown number. but since I am anxious to hear his voice but ticked it is so late, I listen to the voicemail. RED FLAG!!!!! What kind of accent is that??? Where are you from and what do you do???? Huh, did you say you miss me? Did you somewhat sound like a serial killer? It takes a while...6 days to be exact but I know a RED FLAG WHEN I SEE IT!!!!!!

Moral of the story: God will bring my future mate to my front door if He chooses. He doesn't need the internet. Why? Because HE IS GOD!!!

I think I'll just hang out at church. Surely everyone there is normal.

Reunion and Pot Roast

2010-06-11T19:20:00.004-05:00

I have decided not to go to my 20 year HS reunion. I have mixed feeling about not going but they outweigh spending $42.00 or $60.00 at the door.
I had fun in HS but since I am not the shy reserved person I used to be I would know about 20 people and, thanks to FB I have already gotten in touch with them. I know I sound super cynical lately but sometimes you just feel that way.

I made a pot roast tonight and it is soo great! I do not remember all I put in it but I am dang proud of myself. My momma had a knack for putting things together and not having a recipe or so it seemed and I kinda have it too. Hallelujah for small things.

Day 3 of Summer

2010-06-09T21:59:00.002-05:00

I HATE living alone. But God and I have some stuff to work on for sure. Oh well I will be ok. I hate CHANGE!!! Hate it.. But God is in control.

On a different note my dog is crazy. She has asked to go out 5 times in the last hour and all she does is "preach" to the neighbors. Poor girl.
I am not too happy but maybe this is what I needed. Time alone. Time with my Lord. Time to grow and do what I am supposed to.

More Later.

April 24th

2010-04-24T08:50:00.004-05:00

Today is a wonderful relaxing Saturday. I have have a ton to do but...I'll see what actually gets done.

I am beginning to feel the need for the end of the school year and welcome it's haste.

Two weeks ago my dad's wife Doris was diagnosed with breast cancer, yesterday she had surgery and is on her way home today. So that is a good thing. Last night and the rest of this weekend I get to hang out with her sons. All 3 of them. They are great. It is like they are long lost relatives but the fact that they are my step-brothers is kinda neat. We are all the same ages too I think we like having brothers like they like having sisters, it is a neat instant bond that is here because we all lost a parent and we all have a step parent.

That is all for...I am again out of words. AHHH SATURDAYS!

So...Liberty

2010-04-09T20:29:00.004-05:00

I have been unofficially accepted to Liberty University in Virginia. I am going to get my M.A.R. (Master's in Religion) Seminary is something that I have been thinking about as early as 1998. So NOW, 12 years later, it is finally becoming a reality. I am excited and even better I have a peace about this. I had a desire to go to University of Texas at Arlington for my Master's in Education however, when you don't feel a peace about things you shouldn't go ahead and do it just cause. ( I learned this the hard way.) I am excited about this new venture and will need lots of encouragement and prayer.

The other day someone (my sis) made a comment that really made me think. She said she thought I was a "Church Junkie." If you know this sister you know that she chooses her words carefully so as to make the recipient think. This was no different. Prior to this conversation I had decided that I would go to our Saturday and Sunday Easter services. Saturday so I could relax, and participate as a member in the congregation and Sunday b/c I was singing in the choir and would help lead in the worship music. So as it turned out I am a "church junkie" and I wouldn't have it any other way. That is where my friends are, my faith grows and I can corporately worship the Father. The church, my church, is a place where people/I can go to get fed. It is by no means perfect and neither am I but for me it beats bars, clubs and, I can't believe I am about to say this but, shopping. It honestly makes me sad that others don't have a place of refuge.

Next decision: Bible study I feel like I need to do another study. Not for them but for me. I don't know what though so I will be praying about that as well. We just finished Sweeter than Chocolate a Study on the 119th Psalm and I needed to be reminded of how I can dwell on God's word and He will guide me in all I do. There is still so much that I need to learn. Oy.

Lastly Voy a las Islas Canarias otra vez.
Ore para mi..
:-)
Adios

No title yet

2010-03-25T22:28:00.002-05:00

I am so tired. I know that I am not near as tired as some moms but wow, my Zyrtec is kicking my tail in addition to my 3 nights in bed after 12:00. I love Jimmy Fallon though. :-)

We finished our Psalm 119 Study today. It was so good in fact "Sweeter Than Chocolate". We learned about so many truths in God's word. I was so proud of how much all of the ladies had learned but most of all I cannot wait to see how they are applying the knowledge of the truths that we learned. I didn't realize how many of the verses I had learned over the years were from Psalm 119. Psalm 119:103 How sweet are your words to my taste; they are sweeter than honey.

119:105 Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light for my path.

If you haven't studied that chapter, do it, it will change your life.

Well my words are almost finished for today. I do have some funny stories about my students so I will share a few tomorrow.

Really?

2010-03-22T21:20:00.002-05:00

Sometimes people baffle me. I was just at the grocery store and there seemed to be a million people in line. No one seemed to be in a hurry so I pull out my phone and read, play, wait. No one is in a hurry except the ladies behind me who have a lot to say about everything. From Tiger to Healthcare and everything in between. Then they mention out loud that they hope the lines go fast. Well, when you go to Kroger at 9:00 at night it doesn't go fast. Today I am thankful for the patience I have because of my first graders and even more thankful for my iPhone.

God is good and Does GOOD

2010-03-19T12:44:00.003-05:00

I was talking to a friend yesterday and we were saying how we always have something to say when things are going bad and we pray more when they are too. I haven't written here in while because I haven't had anything to say. The truth is I have a ton to say and I can be "preachy" if I want because this space is mine.
"I'm in LOVE, I'm in LOVE and I don't care who knows it." I have somehow forgotten to tell of all of the GOOD that is happening. God has answered so many prayers and comforted me in so many ways that I am ashamed that I haven't written about it. Not for anyone but myself as a memorial of what HE has done. In Joshua, God had the Israelites mark, make a memorial in the place where they crossed the Jordan both in the river and on it's banks. He said it is so they could tell their children and their children's children the great and marvelous things He had done. So I will write about God's ALL SUFFICIENT GRACE here in this place as my memorial to Him and the things he has done.
But first, since this is my spring break, I'm gonna take a nap. My late night at the Houston Livestock Show & Rodeo wore me out.

10 days

2010-02-26T17:20:00.002-06:00

Okay, So...Yeah, All I have is that Spring Break is in 10 school days.

NOT GONNA WORRY...

2010-01-30T22:22:00.003-06:00

I stand in awe of who He is. I am excited about the future and nervous about it at the same time. If I trust Him like I know I should then I won't worry. Ok, I am not gonna worry. ok? Right? God will provide. He has provided. He created the WORLD. I do not need to worry or try to fix things. So, I guess I will just pray and rest in Him. His grace is sufficient. He is enough. He goes before me. HE loves me. Phew, I can rest.

On Time God

2010-01-22T19:39:00.002-06:00

This has been a rough week and I haven't had a week this rough in some time emotions, finances and sad news, hurting friends and a few other things have hit me all at once but I know God is in control and will take care of things in order for Him to get the glory. I'm not gonna lie, this has been very stressful and I am ready for things to be finished but God has given me glimmers of hope. He is able. I rest in His promises. I know He will take care of these things.

On a different note I have been called to a "fast" from TV during the week. I was very productive this week and God and I are going to do this for a few weeks. I have a lot to learn from Him. I can't wait to share what He is teaching me.

My heart hurts for Haiti. I will spend time again this week praying for them.

January 15th

2010-01-15T17:19:00.002-06:00

I have seen my provider, Jehovah Jireh, work in my life this week. I have also seen God's hand in the midst of devastation in Haiti. "...May I trust in your unfailing love." Psalm 13:5

Merrily Happily New Christmas Year..

2009-12-27T15:27:00.006-06:00

My brain is full and there is so much to say. I have had a crazy blast this last month. It began with The Shoe Drive with the Sophomore kids at the beginning of December and then the Christmas Concert/Production Mid-December. It was amazing. I love singing for the Lord and because of our guest performers I now want to be a dancer or a drummer.
I have had all sorts of feelings during this month. It has been 2 years since I got married and 1 year since my marriage was annulled. I was dating a great guy for 6 months that didn't work out but I did realize because of him, that I do deserve to be treated like a queen. Also, no matter what, I would like for someone to be able to take care of me and himself and make me and us a priority.

2009 was a good year for me. I am not who I was when the year started and I know myself so much better too. I am somewhat selfish, I have a short temper at times and I can be very picky and kind of a snob. However, I do know how to help others. I love my family and friends so much. My sister is such a giving person and she would give anyone anything she had. She and I have continued to have so much fun as roommates. I pray that when God brings our husbands we will live near each other. My dad is a fun crazy mess and we have grown to love him even more. He is the most generous man in the world and knows that all that he has isn't or wasn't his in the 1st place. He knows all he has belongs to the Lord and gives it all away. I have some amazing friends and 5 of them will have/or have had babies this year. I love being Auntie Jen.

This next year I am going to focus even more on Jesus and what He wants me to do. There are some good and bad things I need to leave behind and press on toward the goal, the prize, The High Calling of Christ Jesus.
I am ready for 2010. My 20 year reunion is this year and I know God has some AWESOME God things planned for this year. Pray for me, I will be praying for you!

Yeah...I got nothin'... Just some random thoughts

2009-12-13T20:20:00.003-06:00

Life is way different when you see it on a 50" plasma compared to a 27" CRT. Happy Christmas to us from Dad. Since we already have our present we put up our tree and will just enjoy the lights and music and a ton of movies.

I was kinda saddened the other day by the way some grown-ups acted. They were mean to my friend and they were not acting like believers. Unfortunately this hasn't come to a head yet and it will get worse before it gets better. I hope that what needs to be said is done so in a way that God alone is glorified.

I have said this before I have very vivid dreams and I have had several dream where I was a mom of more that one kiddo. So exciting. Just makes me want to pray even harder and more fervently for God to send the right man.

I like the group "Straight No Chaser."

I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR.

Peace.

2009-11-21T18:21:00.002-06:00

I am again out of words. The children have taken them all. I shall rest for the week and perhaps they will return by Friday. Happy Thanksgiving!

No Day Like Today...

2009-10-24T08:46:00.005-05:00

I love that song at the end of RENT. As a musician wanna be, I love the harmonies and the way they weave in and out of the melodic line.

I haven't written in a long time because there is nothing to really write about. However, I have found myself in a slight quandary recently. I love my job but I want a change. The problem is I am not sure what, where, when... I have been challenged to do more in my classroom and with my students and that is good because for there was a time when I didn't want to.

I broke things off with my friend from Memphis. I am sad it didn't work out. We will attempt to still be friends but we all know how that usually plays out. I am single again and for the record I do not want to be set up. The last 3 times haven't worked. ( Sara, he was great, it just didn't work) God is in control. So glad
I can let the creator of the universe, My Elohim, be in charge of my life.

I watch a lot of TV on Saturdays thanks to my DVR. My current faves are THE OFFICE, FLASHFORWARD and Parks and Recreation.

a new dawn, a new day « Life with Heather

2009-10-14T17:46:00.000-05:00

a new dawn, a new day « Life with Heather

My 2 favorite humans in this WORLD!! The other is with Jesus.

Jesus...

2009-09-13T13:11:00.003-05:00

The question of the day was "Who is Jesus?" It it unbelievable and sad how many people do NOT acknowledge Him at all much less as GOD. And here's the thing, it is not a "baptist" thing. Jesus is GOD. He is the Cause of all Creation, and all things were created by Him and for HIM. Now, when I think about that, I am forced to decide if Jesus is prominent in my life or if He is Preeminent. There is a difference and I have to choose. Does He have 1st place in my life? Is he 1st above my hobbies? my job? or family? what about friends? in my relationship? in my money? Would I choose Him if it came with pain? Or would I choose the easy way? What will you do with Jesus? Is He above ALL?

Whew!!

2009-08-29T11:53:00.002-05:00

First week of school DONE!!!! I have used all of my words for the week b/c of the kids so maybe in a week or so I can write again. 1st graders sure do make you tired.

Also, my trainer is slowly trying to kill me. Good thing I am getting stronger so I can fight them back...one day.

BTS

2009-08-03T12:07:00.005-05:00

If you know Heather and I we love to give everything initials. For instance, the Cheesecake Factory is CCF, our dogs are D and S, our parents were M&D, HTH was something we called each other in college thanks to our friend Kristi and so on. Well BTS is Back to School and I am not RTG ( ready to go). I love summer and this has been a great one. Probably the best one I have had in about 4 years!!! Oh well PTL for a job where I can take JJ&A (June, July and August, okay, not the entire 3 months but you get the point) off for myself.

The Reason

2009-07-29T22:07:00.004-05:00

I was reminded today during our sermon this evening at church the reason my blog is called
"All Sufficient (can never spell that without help) Grace." January 13, 2008 I was visiting a Sunday school class for the 1st time in years. God led me there to teach me a lesson.
Cindy, the Sunday school teacher/ life group leader, was in the book of Corinthians for the lesson. Then she read these verses in II Corinthians 12. "7 To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. "
God moved my heart. I had no idea what was to take place in the next 6 months of my life but GOD did. He knew that I would need to find Him in everything I did. That I would need grace to make it each day. That He would not remove the "thorn" in my flesh. He knew that he would use my life for His glory even though I have no idea how. Therefore the blog was named ALL SUFFICIENT GRACE.
I underlined that verse in my bible and wrote the date because it so moved my heart and now a year and half later I saw that verse again. I have seen that verse since then but, today, I saw that verse. (insert Beth Moore emphasis and accent). I have come so far from where I was and yet I am so far from where I need to be. His Grace has been and continues to be sufficient. His GRACE amazes me. His GRACE is enough for me. He is THE reason I get up every day and sleep through the night. MY ALL SUFFICIENT GRACE!!!

Palin is resigning.

2009-07-24T17:53:00.002-05:00

I still kinda like Sarah Palin. She is a fireball and so am I ( secretly). My sister is a fireball and I love her, Maybe Heather should go into politics. That is all I know of politics, my guy follows politics closely. Hope he isn't too disappointed in my lack of interest.

Fuertaventura, Memphis, The "Willis" Tower , Life with Heather and Apollo 11

2009-07-16T17:52:00.010-05:00

So, is a mission trip to paradise really a mission trip? What if you really aren't allowed to share about Jesus? Well...that is what my trip was like as a misionario to Fuertaventura, Islas Canarias, España. We had so much fun and were able to see God's beautiful amazing creation. I met some people that love the Lord and it was so great to serve along side them. The children there were also so cute. They were very well behaved and although they were not in any way interested in the Lord it was neat to see children that loved music and were willing to "perform" the Life School Musical for the Americans and their own parents.

40 years ago today Apollo 11 landed on the moon. I wasn't around then but remember seeing stories and hearing about all that it meant for mankind. It is a huge, small world that we live in. That was evident in Fuertaventura as well.
Did you know you could see the Big Dipper at night from there as well as the sand from the Sahara during the day? AMAZING.

The Willis tower was unveiled yesterday. I am not sure I will ever call it that b/c my mom used to work across the street from it when it was the Sears tower and that was a huge deal then. Anyway, I guess I am just wondering how you change the name of a landmark. I guess just like Enron field went to Minute Maid and the Summit went to the Compaq center to Lakewood. Wonder if I can change something to the Jennifer Sanders center.

My sister has a new blog callled LifewithHeather.com. She is so smart and learning so much. God has brought her through so much...Maybe she will have a Heather Sanders Center one day. She is fully capable of running something for smart people or people that desire to be smart....

Lastly, Memphis!!! We are still going strong even though we are taking things slow. :-) :-) :-)

Memphis

2009-06-28T16:47:00.005-05:00

Long distance dating is killing me. Colin and I live 10.5 hours away from each other by car and about 2 by plane. This is something that I never thought would happen. Colin is an amazing man. We are taking things slow but I really like him. :-) So, if you see me ask. God is a God of restoration. I am proof and Colin is an answer to prayer. Thank you Sara.

One year has passed...

2009-06-25T21:37:00.002-05:00

http://lifewithheather.com/2009/06/23/an-open-letter-2/

Update

2009-06-13T08:58:00.002-05:00

It baffles me how sometimes technology can baffle me.
OK, so, I have begun to work out a bit more regularly, I am down 2.2 lbs this week.
I am going to the Canary Islands for a mission trip in a few weeks thanks to some generous people at church. I pray that God blesses them for blessing me.
My new friend is coming here from Memphis this week. I am so excited and scared at the same time. I just pray we have a great time while he is here. He is staying with some friends of mine so they can get to know him as well and he won't have stay with my dad. :-) That is all for now.

Oh yeah, I really like the Real Housewives of New Jersey. I just pray that some of them realize life isn't about them.

aaaannd done.

2009-06-04T21:50:00.001-05:00

I am finished with school. Praise God from Whom all Blessings Flow.

Let me sum up.

2009-05-30T08:43:00.004-05:00

I haven't written in a long time. I have been busy. I love being busy except when it bites you in the butt. I have been sick quite a few times this school year so I think this summer I will....ok I will stay busy because I cannot stand doing nothing.
I have a sweet friend in Turkey that has introduced me to someone that has blessed my life. I am not ready to share that story quite yet because I need to talk to Sara first but know God has begun a huge restoration.

I am ready for school to be over. I have been sick quite a few times this year, I have no idea why. I love the sweet kids even the crazy one but I am ready for a break.
I plan to continue to use the blog as my accountabilty in Weight Watchers and exercise. So that will be part of my summer routine.. Not much else to share but I will post more often. I also am going to try new recipes. I am a novice to this but will do my best.

4 days till summer break!!

Momma's Day!!!

2009-05-10T18:51:00.003-05:00

This one has been a hard one for some reason. I guess my life has changed in the last year drastically and I guess that is just a part of life, it is always changing. But, today as I went to see my mom's grave I was thinking of some of the things she taught me.
1. Never tell your dad to "Shut up"
2. Always go to weddings
3. Always go to funerals
4. Don't talk about someone with someone other than your mother.
5. There are people that will be nice/nasties.
6. Watch out for said people.
7. Always do your best
8. Keep your house clean. ( still trying to do that all of the time)
9. Laugh often
10. Serve others
11. Stand by your man
12. Never talk about your husband to your children...just your sister.
13. I will not know what tired is until I have kids.
14. Set the table correctly
15. Sing with your mouth open
16. Be your kids biggest Cheerleader
17. Leave work at work.
18. Be a woman of excellence and elegance
19. Be nice to your sister. She is all you have.
20. Take a shower daily.
21. Family is important
22. Hate the sin, not the sinner
23. Save money
24. Pay your bills
25. Buy nice things (on sale)

There are so many comments that I could leave beside each one because there IS a story there. But, that is between she and I. I love my mom so much and miss her like crazy. If you still have your mom...do NOT complain about her. If you don't...I know kinda how you feel. This is my dad 1st Mother's day with out his Mom and this is some of my friends 1st Mother's day as a mom. Life is funny and "Sucky" all at the same time. Good and Bad.
Mom, Your legacy Lives on Forever!!! Thanks.

Whew!!

2009-04-26T21:44:00.002-05:00

So much going on. I wanted to update on the Easter Dinner. The Brisket was divine. We are making it again for my dad because he was recovering from a bout with food poisoning on Easter and only ate a bite. His wife is out of town for a while and we will cook for him a few times. I am going to be 37 in a few days....SCARY!!!! I will update more later. Hold on here we go. The end of the year is close.

Chef Jen

2009-04-11T15:34:00.002-05:00

Chef Jen strikes again. Heather and I are preparing for Easter Sunday dinner at our place. For Easter we are having BRISKET, BABY , mashed potatoes, cabbage, fresh green beans, Tortellini Salad and my mom's Old Fashioned Cream Pie. All of which smell delicious in the pre preparation. I will post how everything turns out.

On another note, I am have been thinking about the sacrifice that Christ made for me. I am in awe of Who He is and how much He loves me. I am Amazed at His love for me. Thank you Jesus. I love you for loving me, for dying for my sin and raising to life so I can have eternal life.

My Sister.

2009-04-08T22:04:00.006-05:00

Seriously...here is the story. Please Pray. She is sad. I am sad for her. What do I do? No advice needed just venting.

God's Plan

2009-03-25T15:34:00.004-05:00

I went with Heather to the doctor today. The news is not too good and I am wondering what God's plan is. I wish my mom was here. We are not sure what God's plan is but we know He is in charge. So many times I ask "Why?" That is, clearly, not mine to know. I pray that I do not get caught up in the crazy unnecessary stuff that surrounds me. For now I want to be the best sister I can be and encourage her as much as I can. I also ask that if you pray...please pray for her. For peace and guidance also "normalcy" we haven't had that for quite sometime and we need it. Or maybe... this is normal. Tests and trials. " Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4 Thank you Lord for reminding me of that truth. I will keep you posted. We should know more test results this week.

My 100 Things "Bucket List"

2009-03-12T14:55:00.002-05:00

I've seen this on some blogs and thought I'd make my own list as well! Everything in BOLD are things I've done. Feel free to copy this list to your blog and do the same.

1. Started your own blog.
2. Slept under the stars.
3. Played in a band.
4. Visited Hawaii.
5. Watched a meteor shower.
6. Given more than you can afford to charity.
7. Been to Disneyland.
8. Climbed a mountain.
9. Held a praying mantis.
10. Sang a solo.
11. Bungee jumped.
12. Visited Paris.
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch.
15. Adopted a child.
16. Had food poisoning.
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty.
18. Grown your own vegetables.
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France.
20. Slept on an overnight train.
21. Had a pillow fight.
22. Hitch hiked.
23. Taken a sick day when you're not sick.
24. Built a snow fort.
25. Held a lamb.
26. Gone skinny dipping.
27. Run a marathon.
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice.
29. Seen a total eclipse.
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset.
31. Hit a home run.
32. Been on a cruise.
33. Seen Niagra Falls in person.
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors.
35. Seen an Amish community.
36. Taught yourself a new language.
37. Had enough money to truly be satisfied.
38. Seen the leaning tower of Pisa in person.
39. Gone rock climbing.
40. Seen Michelangelo's David.
41. Sung karaoke.
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt.
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant.
44. Visited Africa.
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight.
46. Been transported in an ambulance.
47. Had your portrait painted.
48. Gone deep sea fishing.
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person.
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris.
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling.
52. Kissed in the rain.
53. Played in the mud.
54. Gone to a drive-in theater.
55. Been in a movie.
56. Visited the Great Wall of China.
57. Started a business.
58. Taken a martial arts class.
59. Visited Russia.
60. Served in a soup kitchen.
61. Sold Girl Scout cookies.
62. Gone whale watching.
63. Gotten flowers for no reason.
64. Donated blood, platelets, or plasma.
65. Gone sky diving.
66. Visited a Nazi concentration camp.
67. Bounced a check.
68. Flown in a helicopter.
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy.
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial.
71. Eaten caviar.
72. Pieced a quilt.
73. Stood in Times Square.
74. Toured the Everglades.
75. Been fired from a job.
76. Seen the changing of the guards in London.
77. Broken a bone.
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle.
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person.
80. Published a book.
81. Been to the Vatican.
82. Bought a brand new car.
83. Walked in Jerusalem.
84. Had your picture in the paper.
85. Read the entire Bible.
86. Visited the White House.
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating.
88. Had Chicken pox.
89. Saved someone's life.
90. Sat on a jury.
91. Met someone famous.
92. Joined a book club.
93. Lost a loved one.
94. Had a baby.
95. Seen the Alamo in person.
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake.
97. Been involved in a lawsuit.
98. Owned a cell phone.
99. Been stung by a bee.
100. Read an entire book in one day.

Some of these I actually plan to do, some I have no interest in. Since I borrowed this from a good friend (Thanks Carole!) I may post my own list and post it closer to my 3???th birthday. :-)

Thankful for Spring Break

2009-03-09T22:03:00.000-05:00

I am on my 15th spring break since I graduated from college. There are many days when I am so thankful that I chose to be a teacher. For instance when my kids read for the 1st time, when they need a hug and they just rest in my arms, and when they are so "valentimey" that they just can't stand it. But, today was also a day when I am so thankful for being a teacher. Only a few more weeks to mold their minds, to pray for them during our moment of silence and to cheer them on when they need it. I will cherish these next few weeks but I am going to really enjoy this week.

I went to lunch with an old friend/co-worker of mine today and we had a great talk. She is going through a very rough time in her life and I was able to help her because of what I went through. God continues to allow me to encourage people even though I went through a terrible time. He is so Amazing that way. Man, I serve a MIGHTY GOD.

Spring Break

2009-03-03T19:22:00.000-06:00

I am so ready for spring break I can hardly stand it. I am gonna hang out with friends since I hate being alone but I plan on some great coffee, sleepin in and a bit of shopping. I have a ton to say just no energy to say it. I am good though. Weight loss 12 lbs. Woo Hoo!!!

Chef Jen

2009-01-24T12:37:00.001-06:00

Sometimes I get an idea and I like to try it. This week was the week for cooking. I am in my 2nd, 3rd week of weight watchers. I have lost 7.8 lbs so far so I am very encouraged that means that when I eat this will not just be to loose weight but to make it a change in lifestyle. I do not usually compare myself to people on TV but there was the cutest lady on a commercial the other day and I thought...hmm I used to be that thin. Now, mind you I was also training for the marathon then but whatev... Anyway, so this week I made stir fry chicken. I just ate that with some greens and was surprisingly satisfied. I am trying some Garlic Lime Chicken tonight. I am very excited cause I love those flavors together. I will keep you posted on how it goes.
I am almost ready to share my story in all of it's glory but the thought of it wears me out so I will wait a while longer. I am so thankful for the people that just prayed for me. I am ready for a summer to relax and a spring break to not worry. God is so good.

Prayer for Mercy

2009-01-17T17:19:00.000-06:00

Today my friend is waiting for her sister to die while another friend is waiting to see if her baby will live. It is a tough life for believers. But we know that God will use everything for His good. He will bring glory to Himself in all situations.

Funny Kids

2009-01-08T15:09:00.000-06:00

I have a class full of sweet kids. Today, however one of the kids ( 6 years old) broke up with his girlfriend because he didn't want to have kids. He apparently had seen some videos and it scared him. Now, as far as videos...I am not sure what a kid is looking at that makes him not want to be a dad. :-)

Also, I had a kid want to miss his special classes today to do research. He has 6 states that he wants to learn about and made me go to the library during specials to check out some books. The internet is not enough?

Happy New Year!!

2009-01-01T23:24:00.001-06:00

Happy New Year

A year of new beginnings. I am starting this new blog address as I start a new chapter in my life. It has been a ride so join me as I chronicle Jen's Journey.

16 things about me

2009-01-01T23:23:00.001-06:00

Saturday, December 20, 2008

1. I love chocolate chip cookies
2. I live with my sister and we get along better than we did as kids.
3. I love my 1st graders but am not sure this is the end of my calling.
4. My favorite show is Designing Women
5. I have very vivid dreams
6. I was in a beauty pageant at OBU.
7. I think cooking is therapeutic
8. My dog Sophie has out lived 3 dogs, my mom and 2 grandma's.
9. I was married for 341 days thanks to leap year.
10. I like brussel sprouts.
11. I am still a Phelps Phan!!
12. I never went to a homecoming dance in high school.
13. My dream car is a Mercedes Benz S500
14. I watch Tom and Jerry, Cosby Show, or Fresh Prince before bed most nights
15. Romans is my Favorite book.
16. I want to fall in love for real but am not ready yet and don't know if I will ever be.

My Cup Runneth Over!!

2009-01-01T23:19:00.000-06:00

Yesterday was one of the best Christmas' I have had in several years. I was able to spend time with my family and I was renewed. My sister and I cooked breakfast and fed nine people Christmas morning. We made our famous Sleepin' in Omlette, banana bread and other "fun stuff." It was a time where we were just able to be a family. This time last year I was, unknowingly, beginning a tough time in my life. Praise God it is over now and He has begun to restore my soul. I plan to write more when the time is right but now I am just so thankful as I realize that my desire is to Delight myself in the Lord and HE will give the desires of my heart. Psalm 37:4

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